Previous night again, I touched her , kissed her on her forehead,her lips, her chest and her navel and.....

My movements were that of passion, sex hungry animal , forcing myself on her. I wanted to thrust my everything on her , tear her apart. Yes!  mark every part of her body with love bites.
My body language was of a man with no head....or is it no brain?
sorry , no emotions!

My thoughts wavered in the shade of the night lamp,but still darker was  my conscious. Sub - conscious level 
only zeroed to lust or you can call it carnal desire.

I wanted her to reciprocate , to answer my desirous call, my lovemaking, my ecstasy, my thoughts.Neither the
wind blew, nor I heard the leaves fall to hear that rattling sound. There was,but, only silence and sometimes 
it spoke louder than words....

She lied down, like a log of wood, like a dead deer; shreiking and shouting, but, no words , no moaning ,no expression , only  plain looks, starring at me from a different planet and laughing at my helplesness.
She was not aware of my presence,my touch,my craving  just did not matter her!
She had wooven a net , a net of thoughts and inside that , I was banned from entering the prohibited zone.

I wish she could have known it, how I felt that ice cold body, absolutely pale, and no warmth of one-ness or coordination.
I just wanted to leak every single drop of my ink on her !

You call it lust, I know you will say it's not understanding nor love, but one-sided lust or perhaps rape!

Dear friends ,
This is how my pen feel, when the pages lie blank without expression.My pen wants to touch the untouchable blank part of my mind.
Many words fail to express one single thought ,and ,sometimes many thoughts cannot express a single word!